So this is the second time I’ve had a bit of a blog breakdown. The last time was in January when I felt like my life was falling apart, so I’m guessing that there’s a parallel to that. I’m not going to say it was based off of that last relationship, or starting this new job. I’m not really sure what it was, but I felt like my life was nowhere near where I wanted it to be. My birthday was a few weeks ago and I turned off my phone and spent the day shopping alone.
But I’ve been feeling a ton better- work is finally falling into place after a month of working there, and I’m really starting to get confident as an analyst. It’s not exactly what I want to be doing and I know that I won’t stay here for long, but it’s a great opportunity to learn and get training.
And I wouldn’t go as far as to say that I’m dating a new guy, but I’ve been spending a lot of time with this guy. To be honest, it’s not something that can be serious and I’m really not at a place to be tied to anyone or anything in a specific area. He sort of came out of nowhere, told me that he’d had a crush on me since high school. Last night, after getting drunk at a work dinner and after-party, he texted me getting out of work. The restaurant he is a chef at was across the street, so I stumbled down the steps of the bar and met up with him on the street. We walked the streets of Philadelphia, bought some beer, and went back to his place to watch a scary movie in bed.
It was definitely getting close to “first kiss” range when someone rapped their knuckles on his apartment door- his friend, drunkenly asking to sleep on the couch. It ruined the moment completely, so I headed home. We’ll see where this goes…